Post Christmas blues

I'm just sad. The holidays are over, and with them went my kind feelings towards people who've done or said bad things to or about me. Now I'm left with the bad feelings I set aside for the sake of Christmas, and things are worse because said people still don't seem to give a crap that I'm still upset over everything. I guess it's life as usual. 

moments that change your perspective

You know that moment - the one where you think things are already at their lowest and can't get much worse - and then you find out: in fact, they actually can get worse.

Or maybe they were worse than you thought to begin with.

Let's just say that I am quickly approaching the point at which I am finished with the whole thing. As in, done. For good.

For weeks now, I've been having moments of hope. False hope, as it turns out. Just when I think that things might be getting a little bit better, then something bad happens to remind me that that isn't the case, and may never be the case, and it makes everything just a little bit worse.

Just when I think, "Hey, I wasn't mad today," then I find out I have a reason to be mad.

Just when I think, "That must mean that that person cares," I find out that they really don't.

Just when I think, "We've hit the absolute lowest point we're going to hit," I find out things that I didn't know before.

Murphy's Law, right?

Murphy is a bitch.

So fed up.

I am so, SO fed up with people telling me they're going to do something and then just NOT doing it. If someone asks me to do something and I actually commit to doing it, I DO IT. Someone else is counting on me and it is not in my nature to just drop the ball and let someone else figure out how to pick up the pieces of the mess I've left.

Why can't other people be considerate enough to do that?

PEOPLE. IF YOU MAKE A COMMITMENT TO SOMETHING, IT IS NOT MY RESPONSIBILITY TO COVER YOUR BUTT FOR YOU. YOU ARE RESPONSIBLE FOR DOING THAT YOURSELF.

It's called being a responsible, mature adult.


Yeesh.

/vent

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